WHAT IF.

my mind never stops thinking

it never stops churning out questions both you and i know nobody has answer for,

it never stops wondering.

"what if".

a rhetorical question nobody has an absolute answer for.

a question that sets everybody thinking.

a question that explores the depth of mankind.

a question that questions the existence of everything.

what if feelings didn't exist? how does it feel like?

what if distance didn't exist? would i be hurting less now?

what if lies didn't exist? could i finally hear what you have always wanted to tell me?

what if emotions are a virus, a disease meant to kill from inside out? i'd be a zombie by now.

what if you didn't exist? who would i be?

what if things haven't turned out to be this way? would we still be walking around town, hand in hand?

but what really sets me thinking is,

what if i didn't love you? who would you be?

and what if you loved me the way you said you did?

what if you were able to let go of that particular girl, 

and not let her haunt your dreams and every waking moment with memories you two shared, 

not let her remind you her presence at every single place you two had went to,

not let her pull you apart from inside?

what if we never met at all.

what if we just walk past each other in the middle of the crowd on the streets, you with your favourite full black outfit and your hideous looking bag that came with your game and me with my signature outfit?

what if we never knew each other's existence and that i never knew someone like you existed?

i would love to know how it feels to finally not hurt someday.

Sent by Jolene