i can't figure the purpose of me here
at night they get louder and louder
and sometimes i wonder whether it's just me making it all up
what if they are no voices, but only empty spaces?
so vacant that i have to fill it with self-inflicted misery?
what if it's just me seeking attention from the lack of concern towards me?
sometimes it's pandemonium all around,
like everyone screaming and running in great chaos all the time,
then sometimes it's so silent
so silent that i fear another destructive wave might hit next
but how do I explain this to anyone without getting ridiculed?
'get over it', something they always say
if one day,
the voices, the pain, and the loneliness mercilessly catch up to me
as i surrender to the black abyss for once
—pull the trigger,
find myself in peace as the whole world blacks out
buried six feet underground
please, 'get over it'
Written for N
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