TO THE BOY I USED TO ADORE.

i hope you find someone — who is not me, no doubt — who fits in your description of your dream girl: someone who dresses like hayley williams, someone who is quirky.

you're a space nerd, you love the space, the solar system, everything. i hope you find someone who loves them as much and can keep you talking about it, for you are someone who doesn't talk a lot. when she does that, you know she's the one.

i hope you find someone — who, hopefully, isn't like me — clingy, overly attached and needy. you said it yourself that needy behaviour is a huge turn off. 

i hope you find someone who don't mind sitting down with you for hours, listen to you talk about your past, your family, your mental illness and your ex-girlfriends. someone who wouldn't judge you no matter what you tell her, someone who understands your pain.

i hope you find someone who would bring you to east coast to grab the stingray you like on my behalf, for i'm unable to do so. someone who can deal with your weird and sudden cravings, like unagi pineapple rice at 12am.

i hope you find someone who supports your ambition, no matter how crazy it sounds at first because she knows you can do it if you put your heart to it.

i hope you find someone who knows you love gaming and would do nothing to stop you from doing so. 

i hope you find someone who would be there when you need a bigass hug or an insanely innocent cuddle. someone who knows you can sleep through a movie or anything with bright lights and noise because you feel safer this way.

i hope you find someone who would — like me — remind you to stay hydrated, eat your meals, sleep early, drink lesser at zouk or luxi (because it's bad for your liver) and smoke less as well though you can't wait to die. someone who don't mind sounding naggy or like your mom friend just because it's good for you. someone who would turn your negativity to positivity, changing your perspective on life.

i hope you find someone who knows you are facinated by all sorts of stuff. someone who finds your knowledge amazing.

i hope you find someone whom you can spend your april 12's with instead of letting you stay at home and sleep your birthday away. someone who constantly reminds you of how important you are to her. someone who reminds you that you look pretty good in anything, so you don't feel self-conscious.

i hope you find someone who don't mind staring at you  doing nothing all day and still find you pretty amazing. someone who would stare at you with such intensity when you talk because the way you talk makes even the worst student in class want to listen.

i hope you find someone who knows not to play jess glynne when you come home drunk, because she knows you'll start drunk crying. and it definitely would be something that would break her heart.

i hope you find someone who would remember not to buy beer for you because you dislike it. or coffee. you don't drink coffee. because you dislike the taste since young.

i hope you find someone who knows what you are looking for just by looking at what you look at and would help keep a look out for you too. for now, you're looking for a bomber jacket that goes with the ridiculous pants your friends pressurized you to buy which you have no idea how you got into buying it. you also just lost your cap at home, which i have no idea how, but you're looking for it too. someone who knows you only dress in dark colours so she wouldn't buy shirt of hideous colour schemes.

i hope you find someone who loves dogs as much as you do and knows that you don't want to get attached to those at your dad's side because you don't know when they will leave you.

i just hope you find someone who fits you like a puzzle. someone who understands you, someone who loves you wholeheartedly even though you had already forgotten how was it like to be loved.

Sent by The Lolene, 12:53AM